秋天的童话

在这陌生的国度
看着陌生的路人
听着陌生的语言
经历着陌生的季节
这一切是那么的陌生又陌生

以前总羡慕人家到国外深造
和老外交朋友
没想到现在自己有机会了
却感觉这一切
一点都不好

常问自己
后悔当初的决定吗
是否做对了
只是
一切都太迟了
后悔也无济于事
决定错了
也回不了头
只能继续地往前走

独身在外
是那么的寂寞
夜深人静时
这感觉更是特别的强烈

或者其实我并不孤独
因为孤独一直都在我身边
只是
国外的月亮也看过了
老外朋友也交过了
想回家了

再多四个月
就可以回家了：）

:)

Well, got Hamburg as my uni :D
Indeed it is really something to be glad of.
I still remember this is the wish i made at the last day of 2009 and it comes true now.
A brand new life in two weeks time and it ends my life of keep moving from one place to another place.
Seriously i am tired of that.

8 months.
I started to miss my home.the family.the friends.the bed.the food.
想回家:(

The Return

Hello :) I am back again.
I hope this time I am determine enough to update the blog.

Its half a year since I left.
Its summer right now and I have left one week plus to the end of my holidays.
I just feel headache once I think of how to move my thing to my new place after this :(
'm just too tired of moving around.

Anyway due to my extra free time, its makes me think of the food in malaysia. Again!
Egg tart, subang pork mee, wan ton mee, ban mee and bla bla bla. ...
8 more months to go to get all this food.
Everyone is leaving Ipoh now. Ipoh is gonna be a dead city without the lovely people.
Yes, we all hate the feelings of leaving, its sad and unhappy, but what to do, this is life!
We cannot stick to the comfort zone forever.
We need to move forward for the sake of our future.
Just try to get used of the new life and you will find the fun in it.
Live happily people :D

Random: I love beaches.

Musings

Its isnt a good thing when one stays alone and having too much of free time.
Nonsense of thinking will start to get into her mind.
Eventhough i love being alone sometimes,
but i found that im thinking too much of rubbish recently,
and i hate that, it makes me feels bad =((((
All of this is due to too much of free time being alone.
I think i shall start to find something to do, to fill up all this free time.

Winter is finally over! Yayyy!!
Spring is here now. Its not so cold anymore!
Eventhough its so windy, but you will just feel the cool^^
And most importantly, sun shines brightly!

Oh yeahh i love spring=D

The Brand New Life - Germany

Today its exactly one month since I left Malaysia. Time is fleeting again.

After a month, things are settled down of course. But still i am trying to make myself get use of the life here. The weather is so chilly cold. Windy day make you shiver non stop. And the worst is the heater in my room is not functioning at all! Imagine even in the room you have to wear 3 layers of clothes and slip inside the blanket at all time. Winter please go off fast =( Now I could hardly see the sun shines here unlike the one in malaysia which shines 365days, perhaps i would become fairer later ^^? Oh ya, and this crazy winter make me feel like eating and sleeping all the time. My life totally change after i am here. I sleep early and i wake up early. Healthy life huh-.^^

Just passed my birthday 2 days ago. I am officially 20 right now. Oh gosh, im so old. =(
I went to Hamburg to celebrate my birthday, the best birthday that i have had. Thank You =) Will post more photos I took in Hamburg later.

Anyway, here it comes the main reason that make me wanna to write this post.
FUCKING IDIOT STUPID DAMN IT! I MET A FUCKING CRAZY IDIOT TODAY!
I was going home alone after took my things from my friend's house. Holding 3 bags of things waiting for my train at the underground railway station. Suddenly the fucking idiot ( middle aged guy with weird clothes) approached and made some scary and disgusting sound. I was shock at that time and immediately i went off quickly. Who knows he still following me and never stop making the disgusting sound and getting nearer and nearer to me. I was stunned at that time and the legs are like rooted to ground, couldnt move at all. Mouth wasnt able to open and shout for help too. Freaking super scare and frightened at that moment. I know i was about to cry at that time. There were many people there too, so i was trying to turn around to seek for help. And the people were all cold blooded!!! No one help me T.T, and i even saw a teenager standing behind me laughing over there! What the heck is that!!! =( Luckily immediately a man came and lend me a hand and shoo that fucking idiot away. Thanks him so so so so so so much!!! I need to be braver right now! I should need to know how to handle this kinda of situation if it happened next time again. Anyway, this is really the worst experience i ever had! =(((((

Its CNY this coming sunday day. First time away from home for 13000km and couldnt celebrate CNY with family =((((( No matter how i gotta go for shopping on Friday for my chinese new years clothes ^^.


I miss mandarin
I miss ban mee =(((((

New Year Resolution

One more hour, everything in 2009 has to come to an end. Everyone is gonna be older. I am no more a 19 years old teenager. I am going to turn 20, a small adult. For the coming years, my age is starting with the number, two. Time flies. I am so old and so i have no excuses to act childish anymore.

Review back 2009, a year which is so busy and busy and busy. I am sure it would be an unforgettable year for me definitely, for the lifetime. Sad and delighted things all come together at once.

Grandma passed away. I experienced the pain of losing someone important in my life. The sorrow and grief is so undescribeable. Sadness, it is still here, deeply. But I know she is now living happily in the heaven, watching over me. And thank you for her bless, i know its her bless that make me passed the exams. However, I dont have a chance to tell her personally, im leaving to further studies in Germany. Anyway, passing the exams and able to fly, i know i gonna be happy. Eventhough the result is not so good, but this is still something to be proud of. I guess, this should be the turning point of my life. Im stepping to the next phase of my life.

Leaving the comfort zone, i have no idea of what would happen over there. Feeling of so insecure. 2010 what I wanna do is not that much, i just hope everything goes well to me in germany, pass the germany university entry examination and get the uni in Hamburg. Thats all. I am not that greedy =P

Happy New Year 2010 everyone. Just left that bad things behind and have a great year ahead.


*im busy packing my luggage this few days, so im not gonna update this blog until i reach germany, will update after im there=)

Journey that full of memories

I could still remember vividly, the situation and feelings when i first came to KBU,
it was like just happened yesterday,
the feeling of so insecure and excitement,
with unacquaintance places and unfamiliar people.

Out of expectation that i got the scholarship and could it say that its the turning point of my life?

Throughout this 18 months, which is neither short nor long, its more than enough to change you mentally and physically.
And you found out you were once so ugly in your lifetime when browsing through the old photos.
* i dont mean im pretty right now :D

First time learning foreign language,
Found it hard yet fun,

first time sharing a room with people,

Lucky enough to have fanstastic roommates,

first time travelled so much with buses,

first time celebrated so much birthdaysss,

first time having so much non stop tests, exams and assignments.

Away from home for the first time,
learned to be more independent.

First time learn to love and being love. :D

Anyway, just hope everyone got to fly. *finger cross hardly*

The crazy classmates and Herr Lambert

Roommates and jaevon, we were so ugly =P

Bowling with Frau Pfeiffer

Gala Night'08


X'mas 08 @ the Curve

Hooi Ying's birthday

After Poetry at KL

Ta..DA, we have miss African in our gang=p

Banting Trip

Ainin's Birthday, (i know i gotta get kill posting this )

Post TEE trip, the nice one

And finally~~~~ Graduation

Gala Night '09

~the end~

~start of holidays~ * big wink*